October 2nd, 2009


sometimes, it sucks being a mother.

holy cow.

i thought i'd just found oliver dead on the floor of his room.

he'd been coughing earlier and i checked on him. and then i heard him coughing again and checked a few minutes later. but, for the first time i can ever remember, he'd just literally fallen asleep on the spot.

i'm constantly thinking i've just found my children dead. that's how i get my adrenaline rushes these days.